LABYRINTH OF SECRETS

"Harapan itu apa?" | "Harapan itu babi." - Corbis Razak

Takut.





Mungkin ku tak bisa menyatakan apa yang terlintas dibenakku
Bukan kerana ku tak mencinta
Cuma kerana ku tak mampu menatap matamu
Tapi bukankah semua rasaku sedia kau tahu tanpa ku perlu
Menggapai pena dan menulis apa yang ada dihatiku
Kerna dalam hatiku selalu ada kamu
Tuhan tolonglah ku kerna aku takut kehilangan dia
Kerna aku takut dia kan pergi meninggalkanku sendiri di sini
Tuhan tunjukkanlah apa yang terukir dalam hatinya
Jalan mana yang harusku datangi agar terlerai kusut ini
Tuhan tolonglah ku pinjamkan kembali dia padaku
Pegangkanlah takdir ini untukku
Kembalikan dia seperti dulu
Tuhan tunjukkanlah jalan mana yang harusku datangi
agar terlerai kusut ini...
0 Read More →

Another Abortion.

Month one

Mommy
I am only 8 inches long
but I have all my organs.
I love the sound of your voice.
Every time I hear it
I wave my arms and legs.
The sound of your heart beat
is my favorite lullaby.

Month Two

Mommy
today I learned how to suck my thumb.
If you could see me
you could definitely tell that I am a baby.
I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though.
It is so nice and warm in here.

Month Three

You know what Mommy
I'm a girl!!
I hope that makes you happy.
I always want you to be happy.
I don't like it when you cry.
You sound so sad.
It makes me sad too
and I cry with you even though
you can't hear me.

Month Four

Mommy
my hair is starting to grow.
It is very short and fine
but I will have a lot of it.
I spend a lot of my time exercising.
I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes
and stretch my arms and legs.
I am becoming quite good at it too.

Month Five

You went to the doctor today.
Mommy, he lied to you.
He said that I'm not a baby.
I am a baby Mommy, your baby.
I think and feel.
Mommy, what's abortion?

Month Six

I can hear that doctor again.
I don't like him.
He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding my home.
The doctor called it a needle.
Mommy what is it? It burns!
Please make him stop!
I can't get away from it!
Mommy! HELP me!

Month Seven

Mommy
I am okay.
I am in God's arms.
He is holding me.
He told me about abortion.
Why didn't you want me Mommy?

Every Abortion Is Just . . .

One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

Cc:Little Sabby
0 Read More →

The Little Auroura.

Her name was Auroura
She was only five
This is what happened
When she was alive
Her dad was a drunk
Her mom was an addict
Her parents kept her
Locked in an attic
Her only friend was a little toy bear
It was old and worn out
And had patches of hair
She always talked to it
When no one's around
She lays there and hugs it
Not a peep of sound
Until her parents
unlock the door
Some more and more pain
She'll have to endure
A bruise on her leg
A scar on her face
Why would she be
In such a horrible place?
But she grabs her bear
And softly cry's
She loves her parents
But they want her to die
She sits in the corner
Quiet but thinking," God, why? Why is
My life always sinking?"
Such a bad life
For a sad little kid
She'd get beaten and beaten
For anything she did
Then one night
Her mom came home high
The poor child was hit and slapped
As hours went by
Then her mom suddenly
Grabbed for a blade
It was sharp and pointy
One that she made
She thrust the blade
Right in her chest,
" You deserve to die
You worthless pest! "
The mom walked out
Leaving the girl slowly dying
She grabbed her bear
And again started crying
Police showed up
At the small little house
They quickly barged in
Everything was as quiet as a mouse
One officer slowly
Opened a door
To find the sad little girl
Lying on the floor
It must have been bad
To go through so much harm
But at least she died
With her best friend in her arms


Cc:Little Sabby
0 Read More →

Doa untuk saudara Islam.

Ya Allah, lindungilah saudaraku di seluruh negara Islam.

Doa daripada Ustaz Zaharuddin:

Berikut adalah cadangan Qunut Nazilah dengan baris yang telah saya usahakan barisnya dan ertinya, agar boleh dibaca oleh orang ramai. 

اللّهُمَّ إِنّا نَسْتَعِينُكَ وَنُؤمِنُ بِكَ ، وَنَتَوَكَّلُ عَلَيْكَ ونُثْنِيْ عَلَيْكَ الخَيْرَ وَلاَ نَكْفُرُكَ ، اللَّهُمَّ إيَّاكَ نَعْبُد ، وَلَكَ نُصَلِّي وَنَسْجُدُ ، وَإِليكَ نَسْعَى وَنَحْفِد ، نَرْجُو رَحْمَتَكَ وَنَخْشَى
 عَذَابَك ، إِنَّ عَذَابَكَ الجَدَّ بِالكُفَّار مُلْحِق ، اللهم عَذِّبِ الكَفَرَةَ وَأهْلَ الكِتَابِ الَّذِيْنَ يَصُدُّوْنَ عَنْ سَبِيْلِكَ

Maksudnya : "Ya Allah sesungguhnya kami memohon pertolongan dariMU dan kami beriman denganMu, dan kami bertawakkal kepada Mu, dan kami memuja Mu dengan kebaikan dan kami tidak mengkufuriMU, Ya Allah hanya engkau yang kami sembah dan kepada Mu kami menunaikan solat dan bersujud, kepadaMu kami berusaha, kami mengharapkan rahmatMu dan kami takutkan azabMu, sesungguhnya azabMu yang pedih akan dikenakan kepada orang-orang yang kafir, Ya Allah azablah orang-orag kafir Ahli kitab yang menghalang-halangi dari jalanMU."

اللّهمّ إِنَّا نَجْعَلُكَ فِي نُحُورِ أَعْدَائِنَا ، ونَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنْ شُرُوْرِهِمْ

اللّهمّ مُنْزِلَ الكِتَابِ، وَمُجْرِيَ السَّحَابِ، وَهَازِمَ الأَحْزَابِ، اِهْزِمْ اليَهُودَ الغَاصِبِيْنَ المحُتَلِّيْنَ، وَانْصُرْناَ عَلَيْهِمْ وَزَلْزِلْهُم. اللّهُمّ بَدِّدْ شَمْلَهُم وَفَرِّقْ جَمْعَهُمْ، و شَتِّتْ كَلِمَتَهُم , خَالِفْ بَيْنَ قُلُوبِهِم، ، وَزَلْزِلْ أَقْدَامَهُم , وَسَلِّطْ عَلَيْهِمْ كَلْباً مِنْ كِلاَبِكَ يا قهار , يا جبار و يا مُنْتَقِمَ , اللهم أَنْزِلِ بِهِم بَأْسَكَ الَّذِيْ لايُرَدُّ عَنِ القَوْمِ المُجْرِمِين.

Erti :
Wahai Tuhan kami, sesungguhnya kami menjadikan-Mu sebagai pendinding (kepada musuh2) kami, dan kami berlindung dengan-Mu daripada kejahatan mereka.

Wahai Tuhan kami, wahai Tuhan yang menurunkan al-Kitab (al-Quran), dan wahai yang menjalankan awan, dan wahai yang menghancurkan tentera al-Ahzab, hancurkanlah Yahudi perampas dan penjajah dan bantulah kami ke atas mereka dan goyankanlah mereka.

Wahai Tuhan kami, binasakanlah kesempurnaan mereka, dan pecah-belahkanlah jemaah/kesatuan mereka, dan gagapkanlah perkataan mereka (melalutkan kereka), pecah belahkanlah hati-hati mereka, goyahkanlah pendirian mereka, dan hantarkanlah anjing ke atas mereka dari anjing-anjing suruhanMu, wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Gagah Perkasa, wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Berani, wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Berdendam, wahai Allah tuhan kami, turunkanlah ke atas mereka kemarahan dan kesakitan dariMu yang tidak mampu ditolak oleh kaum yang berdosa.

اللهم اُنْصُرِ المُسْلِمِيْنَ وَالمُجَاهِدِينَ عَلىْ اليَهُود..اللّهم انْصُرْناَ عَلَيْهِم فِي كُلِّ مَكَانٍ..اللّهمّ أَرِناَ فِيْهِمْ عَجَائِبَ قُدْرَتِكَ .. اللّهمّ أًحْصِهِمْ عَدَداً وَاقْتُلْهُمْ بَدَداً وَلاَ تُغَادِرْ مِنْهُمْ أَحَداً..اللّهمّ اجْعَلْهُمْ غَنِيْمَةً لِلْمُسْلِمِيْن..اللّهمّ اجْعَلْ سِلاَحَهُمْ فِي صُدُوْرِهِمْ وَكَيْدَهِمْ فِي نُحُورِهِمْ وَتَدْبِيْرِهِمْ تَدْمِيْراً لهَمُ , اللّهمّ اْجْعَلْ الملائكةَ تُعِيْنُ المسلمين ..اللّهمّ سَدِّدْ رَمْيَهُمْ .. اللّهمّ سَدِّدْ رَصَاصَهُمْ

Erti : Ya Allah, bantulah muslimin dan pejuang Islam dalam petempurannya dengan Yahudi, Ya Allah bantulah kami untuk mengalahkan mereka di mana-mana sahaja, Ya Allah tunjukkanlah kepada mereka keajaiban kuasaMu, Ya Allah jadikanlah mereka boleh dibilang, dan bunuhlah mereka sebinasanya, dan janganlah engkau lepaskan mereka walau seorang. Ya Allah jadikanlah senjata dan harta mereka sebagai harta rampasan di tangan kaum Muslim, Ya Allah jadikanlah senjata mereka mengenai dada mereka sendiri, dan helah mereka mengenai tengkuk mereka, dan perancangan mereka penghancur mereka sendiri, Ya Allah jadikanlah para Malaikat membantu kaum Muslimin, Ya Allah tepatkanlah tembakan dan lontaran mereka

اللّهمّ أَهْلِكْهُمْ كَمَا أَهْلَكْتَ إِرَمَ وَعَاد ... اللّهمّ صُبَّ عَلَيْهِمْ سَوْطَ عَذَابِ فَإِنَّهُمْ أَفْسَدُوْا فِي البِلاَدِ وَقَتَلُوْا العِبَادَ , اللهم انصُرْ إِخْوَانَناَ فِي جَمِيْعِ بِلاَدِ المسلمين

Erti : Ya Allah hancurkanlah mereka sebagaimana engkau mengahncur kaum Iram dan ‘Ad , Ya Allah palulah mereka dengan paluan azaz kerana mereka telah melakukan kerosakan dalam negara dan membunuh para hambaMu. Ya Allah bantulah saudara kami di seluruh negara umat Islam.
0 Read More →

wake me up----

Feeling my way through the darkness
Guided by a beating heart
I can’t tell where the journey will end
But I know where to start
They tell me I’m too young to understand
They say I’m caught up in a dream
Life will pass me by if I don’t open up my eyes
Well that’s fine by me
So wake me up when it’s all over
When I’m wiser and I’m older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn’t know I was lost
I tried carrying the weight of the world
But I only have two hands
I hope I get the chance to travel the world
But I don’t have any plans
Wish that I could stay forever this young
Not afraid to close my eyes
Life’s a game made for everyone
And love is the prize


0 Read More →

05 July 13 - 12.22pm












We can return back all of the things they bought us..
We can return back all of the money we owe..
But how about all of the memories..??
How about the shadow that lingers everywhere,
every second and the worst part is 
 everything we do just remind us of them... 
We cry ourself to sleep at night,even sleeping pills doesnt help..,
we do everything that related to them 
and feeling happy even we know they dont even care...
.after all,what's left..?? - the photograph , memories and broken-dreams...
0 Read More →

Angel Haze~

I’ve packed bags full of sadness
Remorse, my anger won’t let me see past it
My bloodshot eyes are so tired, I can’t seem to see straight
It was not supposed to be this way
It cannot be this way
I remember finding sun in your eyes
The stars in your smile
I could walk for miles along the concrete just staring into them
And now I play keyboards like pianos typing symphonies of misery
Instrumenting our memories
Praying that you’ll remember me
Praying that you’ll remember me when my years run out
0 Read More →

no others could..

0 Read More →

Repost~Kenyataan~



Bile insan tue dah tak nak lagi seiringan dengan kite melayari kehidupan,ape yang termampu dilakukan hanya lah memandang si dia pergi tanpa rela..Pasrah...Menangis...Menangis..Dan menangis lagi..Lepaskan segala rase yang terbuku di hati,segala kekesalan yang datang bertimpa..Menangis lagi..Meski si mata sudah cukup penat mengepam airmata..Kerana hanya itu yang termampu..Tak berdaya menghalang,apalagi membuat si dia kembali ke sisi...Tibe satu saat tangisan itu tak mampu lagi dizahirkan oleh airmata...


Melepaskan tanpa rela...Tak layak di gelar melepaskan kerana hati tak pernah rela...
Hanya keterpaksaan semata - mata...Tak di beri pilihan lagi...





0 Read More →

Pasak


boleh tak awak pegang tangan saya
bawa saya selusuri pantai
lihat indahnya awan 

dan tolong ;

jangan lepaskan pegangan itu
sebab saya tak kuat sendiri
langkah ini akan rapuh
dan saya akan jatuh

kalau terpaksa juga awak menjauh
tolong pasak kaki ini di bumi
agar saya akan terus di situ
menanti awak kembali


- situ ada awak. dan selamanya di situ - hanya awak. -

0 Read More →

Bahagia


kalau ditanya pada aku definisinya bahagia
aku cuma kata
bahagia itu bila kau rasa tak mampu hidup tanpa dia
kenapa?
meski dia sakiti hati kau.
dia caci hina kau
dia pijak lumat cinta sayang kau.
kau masih kata,
" Aku takkan bahagia tanpa dia. "
atau 
" Aku akan mati tanpa dia. "

bahagia aku, bahagia dia, bahagia mereka
itu tidak pernah akan sama.

0 Read More →

Your Silent Treatment~

For the past few days,
Things haven't gone very well..
Few problems arose,
Our egos came in between,
And all started going hectic..

Now silence is all that is left for us..
It really kills me inside that we're not talking..
No phone calls, no texts..
Nothing.....just silence...

I miss the way you talked to me,
So soft, so alluring..
I miss the way you send text messages to me,
So caring, so loving..

But all that i receive now is your silent treatment..

I admitted it was all my fault,
Till i caused you so much pain..
But please stop treating me this way,
Cause your silence is the LOUDEST NOISE in my heart..

I'm sorry that I acted the way i did..
I'm sorry that I'm the cause of this silence between us..
I'm sorry because I am late for being sorry..
Please forgive me, sayang..


0 Read More →

LUKA

Yang sakit.
Yang jatuh.
Itu kan awak?
Kenapa perlu heret mereka yang tidak bersalah?
Kenapa perlu palitkan kesan darah?
Kotor, bersepah.
Yang jatuh.
Yang sakit.
Harus bangkit.
Walaupun perit.
Bukan jadi viral berjangkit.
Bila awak luka.
Awak fikir melukakan itu bakal bikin gembira?
Apa punya durjana.
Cukuplah awak luka sendiri.
Ambil ubat dan duduk diam sini.
Rawati kesakitan yang mencengkam diri.
Bukan bikin onar hingga ada yang tersakiti

Kesakitan awak tidak perlu dipindahkan.
Pada orang lain yang tiada kaitan.
Cari punca masalah berkenaan.
Hapuskan sakit secara perlahan.
Bukan mulakan pembunuhan.
Sendiri terluka.
Bukan bermaksud bermulanya episod duka.
Siapa tahu ia bakal bawa gembira?

 (Dunia Sebelah Zara)

0 Read More →

Leaving On Jet Plane


I’m….I’m….
All my bags are packed
Im ready to go
Im standin’ here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin’
Its early morn’
The taxi’s waitin’
He’s blowin’ his horn
Already Im so lonesome
I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

I’m….
There’s so many times I’ve let you down
So many times I’ve played around
but I tell you now, they don’t mean a thing
Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back, I’ll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
And close your eyes and
I’ll be on my way 
Dream about the days to come
When I won’t have to leave alone
About the times, That I won’t have to say

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Cause I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

But, I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

And I'm Leaving on a jet plane
Leaving on a jet plane
0 Read More →

Popular Posts

  • Spark.
    When we settle for the things we don't deserve, we're not only ruining ourselves, we're robbing our future of true love. Love g...
  • Orgasm.
    Underestimate. Really love it when somebody underestimating and judging. It would be an orgasm for you to know what it really is. Sorry for...
  • it's okay not to be okay.
    Sometimes you're just so angry,stressed out,and confused,and you feel like your head is about to explode..all those feeling just turn in...
  • exact word bring exact meaning
    Assalamualaikum =) melayu sopan. bahasa sopan. kias-kias, mantik, sastera separuh daripada melayu. cantik bahasa tersusun. indah makna ditab...
  • Failed to notice.
    We all get torn up, dont we..?? We all get torn up because someone who means so much to us, can just leave.. they can easily walk out of our...
  • Fuck
    There's so much things going through my mind. So much things that I wanted out of my head. But why couldn't I let it out? Why can...
  • Mimpi Sedih.
    Last night I dreamt of you. Bring me somewhere, sitting in front of each other, don't even see your smile. At one point, you tried to ho...

Blog Archive