Painful Eternity.
Am I impatient? I guess. I am dumb. Just now I told myself I have found my fire but every time,it wavers like a candles which light is often flickering. It hurts. The candle is burning me and lighten my path at the same time.
Gelap malam.
I didn't feel very well lately, sort of something getting worse day by day. I don't know why, is it because i realized that i don't achieve any self-improvement through out these years or over-thinking has been lead me into this ?
If you want to know your true strength, dare yourself to do something different, they said. Have you ever try to do something out of your habits, but at last the result are doom, and you know that's not what you're suppose to get. You got so frustrated and the people around keep blaming you, as they started to compare you to the others and judging you for the way you are.
well, you guys should be clear on something i guess. i chose to be here, the fucking place where i don't even have a flash of. i DO have a doubt but things happen, i can't keep blaming myself for my own choice. back to past 2 years ago, what do you expect from eighteen years old girl, disuruh untuk belajar di tempat yang dia lansung tiada keinginan, dalam erti kata lain takde hati pun nak belajaq kat situ. dekat sana dia rasa takde life, tak nampak apa yang dia nak capai, kosong. haa kan senang nak explain.
i've failed once, and that was my biggest mistake i ever did in life, which i disobey my parent's urge and decided to came to this place. i will do my best to make it right, even Thomas Edison only succeed through out thousands trial. things happen for a reason, right ? now i know what i want to achieve in the next 10 years and what i want to achieve by the time i'm 30, insya Allah. I will be brave, and i put my trust on Him. i won't step back because i know He will grant my dream.
If you want to know your true strength, dare yourself to do something different, they said. Have you ever try to do something out of your habits, but at last the result are doom, and you know that's not what you're suppose to get. You got so frustrated and the people around keep blaming you, as they started to compare you to the others and judging you for the way you are.
well, you guys should be clear on something i guess. i chose to be here, the fucking place where i don't even have a flash of. i DO have a doubt but things happen, i can't keep blaming myself for my own choice. back to past 2 years ago, what do you expect from eighteen years old girl, disuruh untuk belajar di tempat yang dia lansung tiada keinginan, dalam erti kata lain takde hati pun nak belajaq kat situ. dekat sana dia rasa takde life, tak nampak apa yang dia nak capai, kosong. haa kan senang nak explain.
i've failed once, and that was my biggest mistake i ever did in life, which i disobey my parent's urge and decided to came to this place. i will do my best to make it right, even Thomas Edison only succeed through out thousands trial. things happen for a reason, right ? now i know what i want to achieve in the next 10 years and what i want to achieve by the time i'm 30, insya Allah. I will be brave, and i put my trust on Him. i won't step back because i know He will grant my dream.
*baru lepas unpacked. Suddenly Melody (si kecik housemate) came in and asked me where will my first date be at ? The zoo, of course. Then, coffee.
Story of us.
There was a time when I said I love you,
Through thick and thin, this I swear stays true,
I gave up the world just for a second to be with you,
Now I wish I didn't do that, because you never said "I love you too".
Gave up my dreams so you can haunt me every night.
Gave up my worldly possessions, as long as I have you, it's alright.
Gave up my best of friends, now different ways we are apart.
Just to give you my heart, and you tore it apart.
It's taking so long to mend the broken pieces.
It's hard when every little thing make me reminisce.
I wish I can stop asking the question of what ifs,
Baby steps I take, hoping someday I'll find my peace.
Such is my reality, series of sad irrationality.
Who would have thought that this love would be my finality?
Please release me from your hook I beg from you.
Stop giving me clues; I tend to have meanings misconstrued.
There's nothing left in me, I assure you.
All the best of me were destroyed by you.
Now that our love has ended,
My heart is yet to be mended.
There was a time when I said I love you
Through thick and thin, what I swore stayed true
Until you left me out of the blue
That's when I realize you've never, and won't ever love me too.
- http://sigaretperisakafein.blogspot.com/2012/10/the-story-of-us.html?m=1 -
