Confession.

Scrolling up and down facebook timeline. Tiba-tiba terbaca post dari poems porn "I'm so sorry to all the people i hurt while i was hurting." Mengingatkan aku pada orang-orang yang pernah dan sedang hadir dalam hidup. Means to say that mereka still ada dari dulu sampai sekarang. Tak pernah lari walau aku banyak sembunyi diri. So i'm thinking about updating this spider-space (baca ikut kefahaman masing-masing) (ruang lelabah, mungkin? Kah kah kah) sebab cliche orang yang lama tak update blog akan cakap "dah bersawang blog ini". Okay dah.

And yeah, deep inside, i'm so sorry for those i hurt, unintentionally. I got so much complain from them "you're so hard to reach" , "sombong dah dia" so on. But hey people, there comes a times when i don't feel like talking to anyone, i refuse to replying texts and answering phone calls. It's like i'm going back to the old me, past few years ago which i lived in my own world.

Aku tahu mereka sedikit terkesan dengan sikap aku nie. This evening one of them text me, asking am i lose my interest of befriending her sebab dah tak layan whatsapp semua. No it's not that aku dah tak nak berkawan, aku just keep my distance, tak nak dekat sangat dan tak nak jauh sangat. The same thing i did to the others. I needed so much comfort that i didn't notice i'm transfering the pain to others. But one thing i will do when i'm ready to hu-ha-hu-ha again, i will text them and cari and bagi friendship bracelet. I will. Boleh request color lagi. Heee (Sebab saya dah pandai buat dragon scale bracelet without referring to that particular youtube videos muehehehehe)

Hermmm.... i think one of them, gonna read this post since we got the same interest into girl. Eh terrrrsasul. Into blogwalking and puisi. So i think post nie adalah jawapan kepada your "moi, mana pergi" , "are you avoiding me" , "moi, saya rindu".

Sekian. Selamat malam.